Old Soul (2017)

WHAT HURTS THE MOST (IS KNOWING YOU WANT TO LEAVE)
Never thought I would find someone
Well, I guess I found you
Gave me comfort when darkness came
Kept me sheltered from the rain

You grew colder when summer came
I held on tighter every day
I saw you had one foot out the door
You couldn’t move the other one

And your lack of words doesn’t bother me
It’s not your cold touch
What hurts the most
Is knowing you want to leave

I’ve been working late every night
Trying to keep it off my mind
But I know that when I close that store
I can’t hold it back for long

Coming home to an empty bed
And all the lights turned off
I bet you’re out on the town again
Trying to find the words to say

And your lack of words doesn’t bother me
It’s not your cold touch
What hurts the most
Is knowing you want to leave

And If you want to leave
Just say it
I think you already know
That I know it
And I know, I know
Just go

And your lack of words doesn’t bother me
It’s not your cold touch
What hurts the most
Is knowing you want to leave

FLEETING LOVE
Fall can be the worst of times
Turning love into light
And I felt heavy at the start of every day
I kept tossing and turning
Hoping he would stay
Singing

Don’t you let this
Be another fleeting love
Don’t you let this
Be another fleeting love

And I was never afraid of being alone
But having him around made my heart less cold
And I felt heavy at the start of every day
I kept tossing and turning
Begging him to stay
Singing

Don’t you let this
Be another fleeting love
Don’t you let this
Be another fleeting love
Me tender, love me bold
Love me tender, love me bold
Then forget my grace
Forget my grace, honey

RAIN
Down comes the rain
Pouring down like honey over me
Oh, darling can’t you see
I know so well that I’m not the girl
You would drop everything you have in your hands for
I’m not the one you would do anything for
That’s not what I ask of you
I only want to see this through

Down comes the rain
Pouring down like honey over me
I know all you want is to feel free
Spend the night if that’s what you want
Go back home when you need your space
I’m so scared when I go up on that stage
I need you to be here for me
I know all you want is just to feel free

Down comes the rain

THINGS WILL BE BETTER
Some days I am afraid of waking up alone
But there are days I think we will be better on our own
I get so tired of waiting by the phone
I don’t dare to ask you where you want to go

I know, I know, things will be better
If we only talk, I know
Things will be better

Some days I would not mind if you left
It leaves me in a field of questions I don’t ask
And we can both see how this is going to end
Still I keep on hoping that some things will change

I know, I know, things will be better
If we only talk, I know
Things will be better

But my tongue gets stuck in glue
When I try to speak to you
And it’s troubling me
You keep troubling me, boy

I know, I know, things will be better
If we only talk, I know
Things will be better

BEG
Begged on my knees
Saying stay, honey, please
But love should not be begged for, I know
It should not be begged for, I know

You turned me into
A person who pleads
You gave me less, and wanted more
I wanted more

Been wasting time
Waiting for a sign
I think I finally made up my mind
I’ve made up my mind

I am closing the door now
I will not beg anymore

LEAD ME
I followed the sea where it took me
I never stopped to ask why

I followed the wind where it led me
I never dared to pry

Somewhere I lost it
That childlike wonder
Oh, that road yonder

And mama, I stayed away from heavy loads
I would never chose that long and winding road
So why am I low
Why am I low

Followed the sea where it took me
I let it lead me

JUNE (NOTHING I CAN DO)
June came like downpour
June came with rain
Walls white, I held your hand

And there was nothing I could do
And those hospital beds must have made you blue

It’s august now
And I can already see
the snow in the streets
The trees are loosing their greens

And There is nothing I can do
No, there is nothing I can do
But to be there for you
To be there for you
There is nothing I can do

I brought you flowers hoping that they would make you feel okay
I brought you music hoping that the blues would wash it all away

LONE WOLF
Love, what a harrowing word
What a way of loosing your mind
And you say I am a lone wolf
A wolf among wolves

Babe, I wasn’t lonely until you came to me
Babe, I wasn’t lonely until you came to me

And you
you say you can’t be with me
Unless happiness settles in my bones
Until I know who I am

Babe, I wasn’t lonely until you came to me
Babe, I wasn’t lonely until you came to me

Fell in love in the city where it always rains
What a fool I was to fall again

MAMA, I WANT TO BE YOUNG
Oh Mama, I want to be young
When I didn’t have to work to get the days to go
When I knew nothing about loss at all

Oh, mama, I want to be young

And mama, you always told me
To find a good man, and I did
But I know he wants to leave
I keep crying when he’s asleep

Oh, mama, I want to be young

I don’t want to be lonely
I don’t want to be on my own
But I don’t pick up the phone
And people ask me if I’m going insane
But mama, all I do is miss him

I have been the woman in many beds
I have made many dumb mistakes
And I never made the choice that I should have made

Oh, mama, I want to be young
Oh, mama, I want to be young

When I was carefree
When you would pick me up
And say, well, honey, it’s just a bruised knee
But now it’s a heavy heart

Oh, mama, I want to be young

I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN
The ink has run dry
It’s like I got nothing more to write
And trains, they are passing by

I grew cold when I grew old

I should have known
I should have known

I used to feel free
Time became a master over me
Oh, this longing for the sea

Time is fickle, time goes by

I should have known
I should have known

That I can’t run